Brian and Taralu

Hello All,

Brian and I had an amazing weekend full of fun and friends. We did Warrior Dash on Saturday, Brian did amazing! He was very good and did not get in the water or mud as per his doctors orders. However, he did take on all other obstacles and did a wonderful job with them. We are already signed up for our next run in October.

We have our up and down days and unfortunately, we have had some down very recently. We work through them but you guys have no clue really what we go through on a daily basis. We are blessed that Brian does so well with chemo but this still has had a negative effect on his life, he cannot do what he has done in the past and he worries all the time about the gym. He has poured his heart in to that place, thank you to all of our members that have stuck with us during this time. I know schedules have been hard for you to get to but please remember that there is an end in sight and we will be back to normal again I promise!

I am so thankful that Brian and I have the relationship that we do. I am not sure either of us could make it through this without each other! Without his strength and determination, I would have no fight to give. But everyday he gives everything he has so I do too. I love you so much Baby!!!!!!!!!

This can be a very lonely fight at times, we know everyone has their lives to live and we respect that, but when this all first happened, we were sending/receiving over 2000 texts in 2 weeks, as the time passes, everyone goes on with their lives and we are still fighting this every day. I can guarantee, I was one of those people in my life, OMG you have cancer? What can I do? Then I would just taper off and eventually stop communication (for what ever reason) never knowing what that does to the person whose life has been turned upside down. I vow to never again be that person. Being on this side of it you see everything entirely different.

I have learned to be thankful for everyday god gives us and to live it as best we can. When we are done with this, we will have both been changed. I am talking to Brian about volunteering at Dr. Swartz’s office in the Chemo room; I think this will be good for him and for those that are setting out on this path. I am going to find a place where I can volunteer and help other care givers through this as well. It is certainly not easy on the person affected by this disease but it is also not easy for the care giver. You are challenged everyday and you need to keep your strength up to make sure your loved one is cared for.

Thanks for listening and I am sorry for the negative undertone however, you all need to know that this is not an easy thing that we are being faced with but we are doing the very best that we can everyday!

Until next time god bless all of you!